Escape of My Thoughts
... rational & irrational ...Sunday, September 23, 2007
Things are not like before
It's been some time, I was not really sure what and why I am doing anything. I meant the things I normally do in my everyday life. The worst part is, lately I don't even care about that. I think thats the killer ... killer for my life.
I went to Tauseef's today for the iftar party and it was fun but at the same time I realized a few things which were not really one of those things that you can call fun. For example, AIESEC is supposed to be that place where regardless what I am doing, it is supposed to be fun. But I realized it's not like that anymore. The reason is ... as usual unknown. And don't even have the motivation as well to work for the organization. Hope it will change in no time.
I went to Tauseef's today for the iftar party and it was fun but at the same time I realized a few things which were not really one of those things that you can call fun. For example, AIESEC is supposed to be that place where regardless what I am doing, it is supposed to be fun. But I realized it's not like that anymore. The reason is ... as usual unknown. And don't even have the motivation as well to work for the organization. Hope it will change in no time.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
I am back ... hopefully
It's been a long time since I wrote. The reason I guess once you stop writing you kind of stop it don't feel like writing anymore, for me there was another reason as well the design of my blog was bothering me. It is not as attractive as it was before :( ... that is one of the biggest reason I was not writing.
I am amazed though with the number of people coming to my blog even after not seeing a post in years. Thank you all who ever you are.
I was kind of in a hibernation, not doing anything literary. Stop studying, stop talking to a lot of people stop doing things I used to do and like, and started doing things I have never plan to do. Trying to figure out what actually life means to us and what exactly it demands from us. Why we have so many problems in everything we do, why we are not able to do perfectly anything we want to do. Couldn't find any answer do you have any ? Don't think so, just in case if you have please drop a comment.
Planning of quiting my education for good and start something with which I can actually live a life and be happy and stop acting of having a good life. I know the road I chose is harder than the road I left but for some wired reason it make much more sense than a planned yet uncertain life. Now my life is neither planned not certain and I like it that way and feel challenged. Though I am struggling, struggling much more than I thought. For example I still could not find from where to start. Hope I will figure something out.
What do you think is a good Life? A life with every single thing planned and one fine morning you find out all you have done so far is going to be end just because we have done something wrong not knowing or you thought that was the perfect thing to do ... or on the other hand another life which has not certain at all, full of confusion and at the same time you are enjoying everything you do. I know it's complicated and also know that things can be even more complicated than this is but thank fully this is how far my life could take me and hoping it does not take me any further.
Wish me luck !
I am amazed though with the number of people coming to my blog even after not seeing a post in years. Thank you all who ever you are.
I was kind of in a hibernation, not doing anything literary. Stop studying, stop talking to a lot of people stop doing things I used to do and like, and started doing things I have never plan to do. Trying to figure out what actually life means to us and what exactly it demands from us. Why we have so many problems in everything we do, why we are not able to do perfectly anything we want to do. Couldn't find any answer do you have any ? Don't think so, just in case if you have please drop a comment.
Planning of quiting my education for good and start something with which I can actually live a life and be happy and stop acting of having a good life. I know the road I chose is harder than the road I left but for some wired reason it make much more sense than a planned yet uncertain life. Now my life is neither planned not certain and I like it that way and feel challenged. Though I am struggling, struggling much more than I thought. For example I still could not find from where to start. Hope I will figure something out.
What do you think is a good Life? A life with every single thing planned and one fine morning you find out all you have done so far is going to be end just because we have done something wrong not knowing or you thought that was the perfect thing to do ... or on the other hand another life which has not certain at all, full of confusion and at the same time you are enjoying everything you do. I know it's complicated and also know that things can be even more complicated than this is but thank fully this is how far my life could take me and hoping it does not take me any further.
Wish me luck !
